So you think I’m broken. Fix me. Bc I’m no quitter. -CQW
posted by: Vixen
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So I was reading Real Live Lesbian’s blog tonight. And she had posted a topic that caught my attention and totally intrigued me. Got me really thinking.
What main emotion do you feel?
On one hand that is….well. Complicated. On a bad week I feel like a fucking train wreck. I have no control over my emotions. EVERYTHING sends me over the edge. I have moments where I feel like a complete psycho. Am overwhelmed by a funk, some days full on depression. But they are short lived. Those days. Some months/weeks are better than others. (thankfuckinggod)
But on a ‘normal’ day, most of the time. My main emotion is happiness. As in eat your heart out, OMFG, H-A-P-P-Y. In addition I feel sub-emotions due to or participating in the cause of my happiness. Like, relief. For those of you that read my site regularly, or even somewhat regularly, you know where I came from. What my life used to be like. I was fucking *drowning*. In depression and unhappiness, sadness, helplessness. I honestly had no idea HOW I would get out or ‘fix’ my life and the ick.
BUT. I found my way out. Out of the darkness and the downward spiral. And it can all be credited to PC. Bc of his help and his support, his faith in me (and eventually his love) he helped me realize that what was going on, where my life was headed was *not* ok, and couldn’t continue. And he helped me make it ‘better’. For my kids and for me. He gave me the strength and the resources.
We were just reflecting the other day on how much HEALTHIER I am. My mind. My body. My soul. ME ME ME. I’m ok now. And ‘ok’ for me, despite the fucked up shit on the side… Is happy.
~smile~
Tell me. What is YOUR main emotion?
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May 21st, 2008 at 1:53 am
Does confusion count as an emotion? If not, then I’ll go with fear–of the unknown, the future.
havingmycakeMay 21st, 2008 at 2:31 am
Happiness and gratitude that I am who I am now, not the basketcase of three years ago.
KahunaMay 21st, 2008 at 4:29 am
Vix – Babushka and I can so relate. We have both been in that place, both alone and in previous relationships. Our life today is so much more stable and healthy – we trusted and loved each other until we could finally love and trust ourself.
KelMay 21st, 2008 at 4:59 am
These days my main emotion is calm. I finally feel that the storm has settled and I’ve learned so many lessons through what I’ve been through. And after a lot of learning, I’ve learned to just let things be, to relax and be calm. And that in turn makes me happy. Life is good these days. :)
The Covert LoverMay 21st, 2008 at 5:43 am
Overwhelmed. That’s been my main emotion for far too long now!
Mojito MojoMay 21st, 2008 at 6:15 am
Oohh – Mine is stress, lol.
Mike YMay 21st, 2008 at 6:23 am
I’d say it’s probably hopeful. I used to feel mostly despair. It didn’t really matter how good things got, I always had the questions and doubts hanging over me. But since you and I have been together, we’ve had ups and downs. But there is always the feeling of hope. You and I seem to share our dreams together. And we have trust in one another.
I love you!
TrollMay 21st, 2008 at 6:57 am
Is horny an emotion? How about snarky?
Sick TightMay 21st, 2008 at 12:47 pm
FIRST OFF – ITS MY FIRST OF MANY VISITS TO YOUR PAGE. I LOVE IT. I GUESS MY MAIN EMOTION WOULD BE MY POSITIVE ADDITUDE TOWARDS WHATEVER?!! NEVER IN A TRUE BAD MOOD, I GET FRUSTRATED BUT IT DON’T LAST LONG!!!
i smile too muchMay 21st, 2008 at 12:53 pm
Good question & answer. Thats awesome. Nothin’ better than that. For me I guess, no matter how high or low I feel, the thing that always stays the same 4 me is my peaceful & hopeful heart. It always keeps me going ; )
mamatulipMay 23rd, 2008 at 11:26 am
Um…stress?
No, seriously.