Becoming a cuckold (pt. 2) ~Pandora’s Box
posted by: PCBetween PC and I we have so many posts in draft form that we are working on. Here is Part 2 of the original post he wrote several weeks ago. It was very well received and we thought it would be good for him to give a bit more detail regarding his feelings toward my first trip to Vegas with my girlfriends…when I first met the Young Marine. And what better for TMI Tuesday? ~wink~
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It was close to noon and I still hadn’t heard from Vixen. This wasn’t like her, so I thought I’d give her a call instead. With the hour time difference, I figured it was still relatively safe. After all, she has never slept past 9am since I’ve known her. And now it was 11am in Vegas.
She answered the phone, but wasn’t exactly bubbly. I can’t say she was groggy either– just a little evasive. Our call didn’t last very long and it left me very uneasy, doubtful, anxious.
It wasn’t until later in the afternoon that Vixen informed me that she had just gone to sleep when I tried reaching her. Apparently, she and her friends partied pretty hard the night before.
We had discussed sending her to Vegas for the past couple of years. But it was always in the context of Us. We always went on vacations together. And I was used to being considered part of her security and her fun. It caught me off guard when I was informed that she wanted to do a special “girls-only getaway”. While I didn’t quite like the idea of missing out with my wife, I liked the idea of being her “cool” husband and so I agreed to send her.
Before letting her leave, I expressed my consent and desire for her to have a great time and to feel free to flirt. I’ve never been threatened by someone hitting on my wife. After all, I knew who she was gonna come home to; and that was with me. But this was different. She wasn’t going to be with me. What could really happen, right?
Well, she had her first night out and I figured I’d check in with her the next morning. I suppose in the back of my mind I was hoping she’d tell me she had fun, but not nearly as much as when I’m with her. Yeah, so much for that wish. She sounded like she had the basic, run of the mill good time. I began probing a bit further to see what transpired her first night out. Did any guys hit on her? Did she dance with any dudes? Any free drinks? Things like that.
When she gave me the play back, I kinda felt bad for her. I was hoping she’d tell me that it was a veritable lust fest. Perhaps she was just feeling a bit reserved, out of consideration for me. I thought I’d let her off the hook and tried to reassure her to just let it all hang out for night #2. I even texted her and told her that I wanted her to get laid, if that were ever on the table. She really doesn’t dig guys, so the chances of this happening were quite slim.
So, here I am talking with Vixen. She’s obviously awake now and the details are definitely coming. Sadly, I made the assumption based on the previous night and based on the earlier call with her that things were probably a bit dull. I couldn’t have been more wrong.
What was I thinking giving her my blessing to have sex with another man? And what was I thinking telling her that the hottest thing she could do was to have oral sex with another? And what was she doing taking me up on such an offer? After all, it was just fantasy talk, right?
If you’ve ever heard of Pandora’s box, you’d understand that I had opened it. I didn’t really expect to embark on this path. I simply thought it was hot talking.
The rush of emotions I have felt over the past few weeks have been a bit overwhelming at times. And yet I find myself strangely addicted to her new adventures and to all of the graphic details. The more I indulge, the more helpless I feel, as if there’s no turning back. She can have anyone she wants. And I’m just along for the ride. I’m her bitch in real life.
~PC
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Vixen
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February 22nd, 2010 at 11:10 pm
interesting to keep getting PC’s side… more please.
p.s. I totally want to touch proud marine (on left in tft pic…mmmmmm)
PetalFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 12:00 am
I agree with Barefoot, fab to hear PC’s thoughts and feelings on it all
southerngirlFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 5:42 am
I applaud you both for keeping the conversation open and real at home. Glad PC is offering his insights to us…
The PanserbjørneFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 8:22 am
I don’t think I’ve seen the guy’s side of it yet in any of the “open relationship” journals that I read. It’s fascinating stuff, especially considering this is apparently just as new to you guys. More, please! I like reading what he’s got to say.
Also, I need to say that I hope these experiments work out great for both of you. :)
– PB
PCFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 9:14 am
I appreciate the comments and glad you guys like to hear my side of things. Honestly, sometimes it feels as if I have to play back things in my own mind to see whether I like hearing it too.
The difficulty in going down this path is that I have to slowly remind myself that what I want and need is less important than my wife’s wants and desires.
When I do that, my expectations are lowered and it allows me to have a better over all experience. This past weekend went exceptionally well. But my time was so preoccupied with doing all of the chores for her. I hated it and loved it at the same time. I wish she’d do more of that and find more ways to make me do stuff. It’s such a turn on. Let me just say that.
VixenFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 10:18 am
BD- LOL, he’s got a rockin’ bod, no? You should see his smile too…totally killer. ;)
VixenFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 10:19 am
PC- working on it hon…. ;)
EmmyFebruary 23rd, 2010 at 7:33 pm
Pandora’s box – great way of explaining it.
The first time I played without my husband, my friend and playmate asked “are you sure because there is NO going back once that door is open??” I truly appreciated his concern and such because, as I said to my husband later, it was Pandora’s box. Once opened, there IS no going back. So, you open it and hope that it ends up being as hot as it was in the talk. In our case, it was all good. Communication being open and all was definitely the key!
VixenThanks for sharing your own experience with us – from your perspective, PC.
~Emmy
February 24th, 2010 at 12:11 am
Emmy, I appreciate your insight and feedback. It def helps. :)
xo
Professor FateFebruary 24th, 2010 at 6:38 am
I, too, agree with Barefoot.
PC – Be careful what you wish/pray for because you just might get it.
The only quibble I have is this:“The difficulty in going down this path is that I have to slowly remind myself that what I want and need is less important than my wife’s wants and desires.”
Vixens wants, needs, desires are NOT more important than yours (and not less important either). A marriage is an ongoing negotiation. You cannot always be the one to give, just as you just being a nice guy I think you should rebel and growing up into a full blown adult.
VixenFebruary 24th, 2010 at 8:02 am
Prof Fate, I think he knows that. He does like to put my needs before his own though. It’s who he is and what he enjoys doing. It’s what makes him such a great husband and partner. :)