08 Mar

Just living is not enough…..

posted by: Vixen

I’m *sigh* in my mid thirties. In less than three years I will be 40.  How in the HELL did I become OLD?!  Meaning…I remember when I thought 40 was so. old.  *LOL*

But honestly, I wouldn’t rather be anywhere else then here.  My favorite part of where I am in life is that I am finally comfortable in my sexuality.  In who I am.  In what I want.  I don’t settle.  I don’t accept half assed or ‘kind of’.

For numerous years I was a follower.  I did what was asked of me.  What others wanted.  In the back of my mind I began forming an idea of what I wanted. But it’s only been in the last six years or so that I realized who that person was, that I thought about becoming, wishing I were…could actually exist.  AND was emerging.

I love knowing what I want.  I love being able to request and require that it be met.

Very empowering. 

“Just living is not enough” said the butterfly, “one must have sunshine, freedom and a little flower.”
~Hans Christian Anderson

~ xo

Vixen

14 Responses to “Just living is not enough…..”

  1.   frenchiesNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 6:25 am

    I agree with all of this post, “Just living is NOT enough” I am so happy that you’ve found a good place and enjoy being you. Plus on a greedy side note I love reading about it all. :)

  2.   Westcoast WeirdoNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 7:16 am

    Finally ;) You KWIM

  3.   viemoiraNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 7:26 am

    And for what is said in this post you’re more beautiful and stronger and awake to life then most! :)

  4.   Babe LincolnNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 8:23 am

    Lord I hear ya on the aging thing! I know it is just a number and I feel better/sexier/healthier than I did in my 20′s, but for some reason, turning 35 this June has me in a dither! But, here’s to knowing what you want and freeing yourself from the constraints of what is expected!

  5.   KaraNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 8:37 am

    Hi Vixen, you may be closing in on 40 but you look young enough to come party it up with us college girls!!!!! We’re glad your enjoying your life though.
    Kara & Jess XOXOXOXO

  6.   Barefoot DreamingNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 10:14 am

    I am at the same age place as you (exactly))))) but I have never felt more in control ever. I love this age, even if it means I am driving myself crazy trying to get to where I want to be. It would be easier if everyone would just get the f out of my way!!!! love this post!

  7.   Cherrie JahoskyNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 11:10 am

    Did you create your own blog or did a program do it? Could you please respond? 83

  8.   DeweyNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 12:45 pm

    Same age as well, and I certainly like it when a women knows what she wants, what makes her feel good, and is strong enough to voice that. Better to feel comfortable about this now, then say when you’re 85. Ohh god! Let’s just party like tomorrow is the last day on earth shall we. ;)

  9.   KahunaNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 4:30 pm

    VIX – Must be a theme, although in my case it is my early 40′s that are so much better than my 20′s or 30′s.

    Internal confidence and self-respect add so much to being happy in life; sexually, emotionally and spiritually!

    muah back at you and PC

  10.   ~KNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 4:48 pm

    Love your post baby..I am 43, but a young 43. I fell like my life has been ground down to nothing and now I have rebuild from the ashes. I too know what I want, and I am not willing to settle. still sometimes it is really hard to hang in there.

  11.   ElleNo Gravatar Says:
    March 8th, 2010 at 7:15 pm

    I feel I’m on something of a similar path, but not quite as far as you yet. Getting there though ;)

  12.   TUGNo Gravatar Says:
    March 9th, 2010 at 12:48 am

    Were you in my head a couple days ago? Tazgirl and I were having a very similar conversation. I have topic on my list of things to blog about.

  13.   BellaNo Gravatar Says:
    March 9th, 2010 at 7:53 pm

    Agreed. Its interesting to look back and see how my perception of self has evolved. I’m still working on being completely comfortable with myself but this 34 year old has made great progress!

  14.   TopazNo Gravatar Says:
    March 10th, 2010 at 5:59 am

    ‘Living for me’ and ‘satisfying others’ – there is a fine balance. I’m not in the same place you find yourself, though the same challenge. I think to abandon either side fully would lead to heartache, so there must be a balance (for me). I like this issue you raise; the one thread I see in your thoughts and the commenters is ‘not settling’ – and I think that’s the key to balance. Everyone worth living for should never be about settling… (as I write this, I realize I have yet to get there…)

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