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Haven’t done this in awhile…. This is my new favorite song on my playlist. Kinda plays into my mood this week a bit.

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So.  I had actually been working on a CQW post and found myself feeling anxious and overwhelmed by the time and thought I was having to put into it.  And I ended up saying- screw it.  Instead what you get is random jumble of thoughts.  I mentioned too that I’d like to use the case I served as a juror in for some CQW topics.  I’m having a hard time though processing my thoughts regarding it.  I guess, quite honestly, it really traumatized me on several levels.  The judgement placed on what I thought was a ‘normal’ teenage boy.  The insanity of what an angry father did…  I’m finally just now not having disturbing dreams about it.  Gah.  Not fun stuff.

My mind is racing. I need it to slow the fuck down.  The unfortunate fun part of my neurosis is that I become overwhelmed easily.  And when I’m overwhelmed I become frazzled and unable to concentrate or think clearly and often times in turn I get very irritable.  I admit it, I don’t handle stress very well.  Or being overwhelmed.

*deep breaths*

I am overwhelmed.  The time change- while I LOVE the added light- has seriously fucked up my sleeping habits.  Or rather, lack there of.  I’ve gotten a handful of hours of sleep this week and had a completely crazy busy week.  PC and I are heading to California on Thursday (more to come on this tomorrow….stay tuned ~wink~).  I’ve had a slew of things to get done before we leave…getting the house and animals ready for their babysitter to come stay with them.  Prepping for us to be gone.  Laundry.  Packing.  And not just for *us* but for the kiddos who are staying with their grandparents.  Arrangements for pick ups and drop offs.  Primping appointments (what?! I’m a girl!  Don’t act like you all are surprised!).  The list goes on.

But it will all be worth it come Thursday afternoon when I take my first sip of beer and am amongst super awesome friends in warm temps, with palm trees in my view.  Ahhh…..

I do have to say, our weather has been FABULOUS.  Which definitely makes me a bit more sun-shiney.  I’ve gotten in some incredible runs and am finally feeling back in shape after such a long, rough winter.  I was forced to take SO much time off this winter.  From when I badly cut my foot last fall, to being constantly so so sick (I swear my lungs are just finally feeling ‘normal’ again), and then the harsh winter where snow was almost always on the ground.  Yeah…put a damper on things.  Temps and snow I can work around with the treadmill.  A cut foot and being sick all winter…not so much.

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Packing….  Got my jeans, bikini, tank tops, sweatshirt, large long haired cat…..  Does he know he’s not coming with???  *snicker

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Happy HUMP Day!!!

~xo

Vixen

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