My theme song this week…

This week…gah. Stressful. Incredibly busy. Dramatic. Overwhelming. And where it’s left me is completely emotionally drained. I don’t ‘do’ stress very well and am easily overwhelmed, which left me a bit of a mess the latter part of this week.  The girl I love dearly, care about, hasn’t taken as much of a priority as I would have liked her to have.  Also causing me to be overly defensive when it came to matters with PC when all he needed was a shoulder to lean on and an ear to vent his frustrations and thoughts to.  (((PC)))  Yes, hello, it’s not solely the Vixen-show (thumps self in head)

So..no Friday Favorites. (I actually almost didn’t even do HNT this week)  No random weekly update other than- HOLY BUSY WEEK BATMAN combined with several anxiety raising stressers that I definitely could have lived with out.  *deep breaths*  But, I made it through the week.  It’s Friday, my Studmuffin friend arrives today for a long weekend visit and I plan on participating in a lot of much needed drinking and sex.  That should help, I’m sure of it.  And if nothing else, it will be fun! *wink*

Enjoy your weekend!

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~ xo

Vixen

An email.

Sun, May 1, 2011 at 12:07 AM

No subject.

From her.

Then….

IWTFU
against the wall with my mouth
and with my fingers

I want to hear you moan and to feel you whimper
I want to know you want me
to know you are

mine 

*zing*

Oh..
OH.
Oh….

Damndamndamn.  Fuck. I want that.  So so so badly.

My heart is in my throat…going a million miles an hour…while squeezing my legs together.

All at the same time.

*want*

And a memory comes to mind…of dancing together to Jessie’s Girl.

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TFT is up!

*THANKS* to all our contributors!  Please tell your friends, other bloggers, if you’ve considered participating- now is the perfect time!

Don’t forget to tell me how you would like to be credited and/or linked. You can even remain anonymous if you would like.  Just snap and Send!  (C’mon, you know who you are, you know you wanna!)

******

~ xo

Vixen

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One day I sent her a pic I had just taken…  “I like to wear funky socks”
And she responds with a pic as well…  “Me too”
(both of us wearing funky, silly socks with our normal, every day outfits…normal, every day shoes)

We both love socks.  We both love even more so *thigh high* socks.

Ok.  I love thigh high socks on HER.  Her amazing, incredibly perfect legs…that reach up to her amazing, AMAZING incredible ass.

When we would go out together, her in her short dresses…and thigh high socks…my hands would wander up her hemline…  I love to run my fingers along the edge of her panties, her thigh….where her way upper thigh meets her ass.  My thumb pushing just under the seam.

Wishing..wanting to…..feel her….all of her….

Yes.  I love socks.  Specifically HER in socks.

*****

TFT is up!

*THANKS* to all our contributors!  Please tell your friends, other bloggers, if you’ve considered participating- now is the perfect time!

Don’t forget to tell me how you would like to be credited and/or linked. You can even remain anonymous if you would like.  Just snap and Send!  (C’mon, you know who you are, you know you wanna!)

******

~ xo

Vixen

Friday Favorites-

Remember the thumbnails are only meant to be teasers.  If you haven’t done so already, hit them up and show some love!

Cheeky Minx…Love, Hate, Sex, Cake…..

Barefoot Dreamer.….

*****

Highlights of my week…

* Talking on the phone with HER. Don’t get me wrong, we are in constant contact with each other on a daily basis (texts, FB, email, messaging, IMing…).  But once a week or so we *talk* and she has the sweetest, cutest whereshesfrom-accent.  Hearing it makes me smile.  Hugely.  And giggle…I giggle a lot when her and I talk.

* Despite the horrendous 75+mph winds the first part of the week (GAH!!!!) I have logged in 20miles this week.  Go me!

* The dogs missed. missed. missed me.  FINALLY come half way through the week I could adjust myself on the couch or move from one end of the kitchen to the other and not have all 5 of the 7 dogs hop up to freak out follow closely at my heels.  They are normally very clingy but this week has been insanely so!

* Two of the 4 cats have been the same way.  When I mentioned it to Roxy mid-week she texted me back “You’re complaining about pussy following you?!”  …haha…ok good point.  *wink*

* My Studmuffin friend is coming to town in a couple weeks.  *giddy*  I am super excited.

* Took Little Miss Emma (little broken baby girl dog)  in for her 5wk post op xrays and the vet was super pleased.  The break is healing fabulously, much better/faster than he anticipated.  She goes in next week to have the pin surgically removed.  (downside is she’ll have to be anesthetized and at the vet the entire day and then required to be on ‘crate rest’ for two weeks…but we’ve gotten this far!)

* PC and I got along the best we possibly ever had on our last trip.  Which made for an amazingly relaxing and super fun trip.  (have I mentioned lately how much I *heart* him… *grins*)

* Spending the long wkend with Roxy made me realize (yet again…) how much I miss her when we’re not together.  …:::sigh:::…

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And….there you go.  Happy Friday!  Have a fantabulous weekend!!!

~ xo

Vixen

Some random conversations from this weekend…

Conversation #1:
The kiddos and I were talking in the kitchen while I was cooking dinner. 

LM: How old were you when you kissed your first boy.

Vixen: Um, Kindergarten

LM: Kindergarten?!

Vixen: Wait…maybe it was 2nd grade.

PC (yelling from the other room): VIXEN! [Insert full...complete, long ass real name...]  COME.  HERE!

Vixen: what????

PC: Lets stick with telling the kids about my experiences…not yours.

*snort* I can’t help it if I’ve had an um, ‘adventurous’ past.

Conversation #2
After picking up LP from a sleep over with a friend…

LP: We had spaghetti last night for dinner

Vixen: Oh yeah?

LP: Yeah…but it was weird.  They put ground beef in their sauce?!?!

Vixen (laughing): Um, I think that is actually how a lot of people probably eat their spaghetti.

LP: Really???  I like yours way better
(the, uh, kind with out meat…)

And then when I tell PC about what she said…
PC: Our poor warped kids

*LOL*

Conversation #3:

PC: Hey LM would you turn on that fan over there?

*LM trying to figure out the switch*

Vixen to LM: Just flip it, it goes both ways.

PC under his breath: ….just like Mommy.

Vixen:  *shaking head* nice
……..
……….
…………..

LM several minutes later…. “What does that mean???”

Vixen: um, nothing…..

(doh!)

Sexploits-
Variation of one I’ve done before… I found it on France‘s site and stole it from her lovely self.

Kiss a girl
Have you met me?  *grins*  Yes…   

Have anal   
Yes.

Have a threesome   
Yeeesssss

Engage in group sex
Mmm….at what point is it considered ‘group sex’, I’m guessing that 4some in high school would probably qualify.    

Have phone sex    
Yeah.  I can think of one time that it was actually enjoyable *wickedgrinsPC* ….soooooo not a fan of the phone.

Masturbate    
Duh (did you read BFD’s post that one day??) *wink*

Use a vibrator    
My fish and I have a long standing love affair.

Use a sex toy on someone else    
MmmHmm…

Be tied up    
Yeah (not my favorite)

Tie someone up    
Yep (also not my favorite)

Have sex in a public space    
Ha….which time?  *wicked grins*
I have a ‘thing’ for public places/exhibitionism…if you haven’t noticed.

Be a voyeur and watch others having sex (live, porn does not count)    
Hmm…oh wait!  Yes.  *ahemRoxysahem*

Sex in a car    
Oh yeah *wicked grins*

Sex at a drive-in    
*thinking* …..no, not sex.    (what do you know! I answered no to something! haha)

Mile-high club   
No.  I’m actually not sure this one will ever be accomplished. It’s not high on my ‘to do’ list

Sex with a stranger    
Um…what defines a stranger?  *LOL*  Had I met them that night?  Yes.  But doesn’t that technically not make them a stranger anymore?

One-night stand    
Yes

Married sex
*snort*  Yes. (duh)

Sex on a boat   
Yep.  Mid-day, out on the lake, been drinking through out the afternoon, pull the bikini bottoms to the side…..hope the ranger doesn’t come by.  Fun…  *wicked grins*

Sex in a body of water    
MmmHmm!  (hello…me….water fetish!)

Light spanking    
Yep

Read erotica    
I read many sex blogs, so, yeah

Play strip poker/Monopoly/card game   
Yeah….people love to play with me (*giggle* I mean the games silly) bc I suck at most of them.

Sex in the shower    
YES (please!!!)

Sex standing up against a wall    
Love it, yes.

Sex with no kissing   
I have…although it’s not my favorite.  HUGE fan of kissing.  It’s very important to me.  But occasionally a super hot and heavy fucking comes with out kissing.  And then it’s ok.

Sex in the pitch black    
YES!!!  (my other fetish)

Sex in the broad daylight    
Yes. 

Making out with no sex long after you’re no longer a virgin    
Yeah…. *sigh*  That’s fun too.

Sex in a tent in the wilderness    
Oh lord….yes.  For several years the only privacy my exH and I could get was if we went camping…and so we went every wkend.

Watch porn together    
With PC?  Yeah….I think maybe twice.  He’s not a fan.  And I think we ended up laughing and making fun of the girls technique the entire time.

Watch porn alone    
Yep, I have.  It’s not something I do often.  I’m not even sure where my Girls Gone Wild collection went (have I mentioned when my exH and I split, it was like the one thing we divied up?  Haha..).  There are some short videos on Tumblr (I’ve posted my favorites here in fact) that I love to watch.

Learn to give yourself multiple orgasms     
I am very multi-orgasmic.

Sex on the beach   
Yes!

Blindfolds    
Yeah.  Props aren’t really a favorite of mine.  I’m all about *US*.  (my fish excluded)

Using ice sexually    
Yes.  Popsicles too! 

Sexual role play    
Yeah…but not in a super long time.  I don’t role play very well.

Whipped cream    
Mmmm, oh yes…..looooooove whip cream

La Perla lingerie sex    
I have no idea what that is ????

Frederick’s of Hollywood lingerie sex    
*confused*  Are we talking about sex while wearing an item from here????  Then yes.

Sex with someone much older    
No…  I’m hardly attracted to people my own age (PC excluded….swoon), much less older than me.

Sex with someone younger (legal!) 
You read my site, right?  Well….that answers that then.

Sex in a foreign country, possibly with a foreigner    
Sex in another country- yes.  But they were not foreign.

A quickie in a skirt    
Yes!  Love it.  I’ve written about that several times.  Something so hot about a dress or skirt being lifted and fucked that way.

A longie in the rain   
Yes!

Sex in the ocean while people swim all around you    
*grins*  yeah…..

Feather ticklers    
Tried it.  Again…a ‘thing’, I don’t want props in my bedroom.  Call me party spoiler, but they just kill the mood for me.

Sex while “altered” whether by alcohol or something else    
Ahahahahaha……  Um.  Yeah.

Learn to orgasm in less than five minutes from intercourse alone    
It could happen, yes.  It HAS happened.

Silent sex in a full house    
God…yes.  That thrill of possibly being caught, and of knowing so many other people around and you have to be super quiet.  Fucking hot.  Seriously.

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~ xo

Vixen

Friday Favorites-

So…the girls this week….damn.  Here are this weeks favorites, if you haven’t done so already, click the links and hit them up. 

Janie… Hundred Ways To Be Perverse…..

Emmy…Right Turn With Out Signaling…..

My Hot Raven…..

*****

This week…man.  *shaking head*

I spent the first part of it a teensy (major understatement) bit overwhelmed. 

Our 5month old Texas Heeler puppy, Emma, had a fluke accident that resulted in a very serious injury (a sharp spiral fracture in her Tibia, the Fibula was broken as well). 

Requiring very difficult decisions to be made on very short notice.  Decisions and I.  Admittedly I’m not very good at them.  Decisions under pressure?  Even worse.  PC was incredibly sweet at remaining calm and standing behind me, offering support.  Several of my friends were there for me exactly when I needed them to be.  (thank you….)

I hadn’t been getting enough sleep.  I mean I never get much night time sleep but am usually able to compensate with a cat nap and/or one night a week where I just crash and can truly recharge.  I was lacking on the ‘recharging’.  Which meant I was running on empty more so than I’m able to function on (very well at least). 

I was mentally and physically exhausted.  And spent.

Unfortunately= me—> extremely emotional.  Which given the first few previous things…yeah.  Makes sense.

There have been several other stressers that have added to the ‘fun’ this week.

But. 

Emma came out of orthopedic surgery like a champ Wednesday afternoon, so much so they released her to me that night.  She/we have a long road of recovery ahead of us but she’s going to be ok.  ((((Babygirl)))

Our weather has been fabulous.  I’ve been able to run along my favorite trail system all week, getting in 25miles.  I saw a magnificent buck Elk less than 10′ from me on it’s way to get a drink from the river (one of the few times I wished I had my cell on me when running).  And on another day, a calf being born (spring is coming!!!).  When you get out there and stretch your legs, breathing in the fresh air, with the perfect playlist on your iPod….I feel as if I can run forever.  (Unfortunately my knees and hips haven’t been as pleased about this…  *oaff*)

I’ve since gotten a bit of much needed ‘catch up’ rest.  Have found a bit better head space.  Things are never perfect but they can at least be peachier.  And that they are.

*****

Oh. And um….  I’m thinking you might be (reeeaaally) interested in reading something SHE posted. 
*ahem*
Did you click?
(yeah)

Enjoy your uh, weekend.

~ xo

Vixen

Friday Favorites-
Remember the thumbnails are only meant to be teasers.  If you haven’t done so already, hit them up and show some love!

Lady Grinning Soul…..

Daisy…..

And the most swoon-worthy in my opinion (yes, it’s quite possibly I’m highly a bit partial)…
Barefoot Dreamer…..

My girl went in for major surgery on Monday and has been recovering in the hospital. There is nothing more I wish then that I could be there with her.  One of the super sucky things about this whole long distance thing. 
*heavy sigh*

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1. Do you like your feet to touch when having sex?
Um….I’m not sure I’ve ever given this much thought.  I don’t have an aversion to feet.  Wanna play footsies with me?  *grins*

2. If your love life was a movie what would the title be?
Hmm….trying to think.  Not many movies accurately describe it.  Maybe a combo of Eyes Wide Shut/No Strings Attached/Love and Other Drugs/Cinderella/Enchanted??? 

3. Orgasm eyes open or closed?
CLOSED

4. Have you ever been to a sex club, swinger club or sex party?
Yep.

5. How many years difference is appropriate for having sex with someone…example is it appropriate for a 36 year old to be with a 20 year old?
Hey!  No digs at the over 35 crowd.  I pretty much have to say yes here (lol).  The youngest person I’ve had sex with was 19….  It 13 year difference.  Course I guess my Young Marine friend was 17 years younger than me so…  Honestly.  I only think it’s ‘inappropriate’ if the person is under age.  Beyond that, to each their own.  *shrug*

6. Does your partner know all your favorite positions?
I’m pretty sure

7. What would your porn star name be?
Vixen?  *wink*

8. Have you ever done a body shot?
Yes I have.  I’ve been the one taking the shot as well as the one giving the shot.  Favorite body shot memory ever though was in Vegas with a certain swoon-worthy gal (ahemBFDahem)

9. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Ha….yeah.  That’s pretty much a given, no?

10. Have you ever screamed out the wrong name during the heat of the moment?
Uh no!  But that’s not really a ‘me’ thing anyways…unless your name is God *wicked grins*

11. Are socks on during sex a turn on or off?
OFF!!!!  Unless those socks are thigh highs GET. THEM. OFF.  Huge turn off.  Something about socks on a naked body.  Not sexy at all.

12. How big is too big for penis size?
I’ll let you know if I ever find out.

13. THIS ONE IS FROM THE HUBMAN DO YOU THINK YOUR GRANDPARENTS STILL HAVE SEX?
Doubtful…..they’re all deceased. (doh)

14. Who usually initiates the foreplay in your relationship?
Pretty mutual.  I think I tend to initiate sex though.

15. Do you like to be teased?
Um, yes…. To a degree.  I don’t like to be frustrated though.

16. Do you like your hair pulled?
Mmm….yes. I. do.

17. How do you feel about long distance relationships and can they work?
*sigh*  Yes….they can work.  Although the distance is frustrating as hell.  I’m a girl that wants what she wants when she wants it.

18.How much money would it take to have sex with someone you were not attracted to?
Quite a lot.  I *really* NEED a ‘click’ to have sex with someone.

19. What would your SEX license plate say?
Yzplez

20. Does biting turn you on?
OH God yes…yeeeeeesssssssss
(I think the marks on my neck from the other night are probably a good indicator of this…  *ahem*)

21. Sex in a barn full of cows and horses or a outhouse at the county fair?
Ewww….sex in the barn FOR SURE.  BTDT actually (I grew up on a ranch and live on a farm….).  I don’t even want to USE an outhouse, much less get down and dirty in one!

*****

Alrighty everyone, it’s the weekend.  Be naughty!

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~ xo

Vixen

On beer consumption-

As I’m perched on the toilet seat painting my nails…
*PC picks up an empty can sitting next to an unopened beer on my dresser and looks quizzically at me*

PC- when we met did I know how much you liked beer?

Me- (indignantly) Yes!

*****

On change-

Change and I are not friends.  We are not even on the same page.  Ok, we’re not even in the same freakin’ book!  I’ve been using a Blackberry for over 4 years, when PC convinced me there were bigger and better things than a flip phone (hey! Don’t laugh….).  I looooooooooooooooved my BB.  We were inseparable.  Last spring for a total of 5 minutes I attempted something other than one and I swear PC was having a larger panic attack than I was regarding my reaction to it.  (my OCD issues are not to be debated here)  But.  After several beers the other night I was convinced with only minor feet dragging to try a smart phone.  Yes, Vixen and an HTC Shift have entered into a love/hate relationship.  I’ve been teased before by friends that my FB relationship status should say it was with my BB. 

The good news is I didn’t toss the phone back in PC’s lap while practicing deep breathing techniques with in 4 hours of bringing it home.  Course to ‘aide in a smoother transition’ he also has downloaded and synced every possible thing he can.  I do admit, I’m loving the keyboard.

I think the bad news is less phone related…our Airave is STILL not working (we live in a very rural area that is not conducive to cell service, this device works with our internet to provide us with better cell service).  After many phone calls and many hours spent on the phone with customer service….  Well. It’s still not working. Godsend when it works.  Bastard PITA when it doesn’t.
*grumble grumble*

*****

On her-

(vi.sualize.us)

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*****

On Computer Techy Stuff-

As some of you may have noticed…  My site was hacked and infected by Malware.  Interesting way in which they did it too.  They inserted the virus in the search engine.  When you pulled up the actual posts…nothing.  PC worked from Thursday night until Saturday afternoon on it.  Smart cookie that one is… *swoon*  Figured it out, got rid of it and all is restored in Vixen-land.
*whew*

YAY!!!

*****

Alrighty….Monday is here.  Enjoy!

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~ xo

Vixen

2010 Recap- Yes yes, I know. It’s actually almost February and I’m just now (finally!) getting it up (snicker).  It’s been mostly finished for weeks. I considered just ditching the entire thing and then realized how much I had invested already.  So yeah….here ya go.  It’s been quite a year.

***FYI, click on the highlighted links to see original posts

January….

My sister, Roxy and I prepped for our first girls only trip to viva Las Vegas.

We spent four days in -Sin City partying it up doing it up right our second night in with table service at The Rok and pulling an all nighter….10:00 am was the time in I believe.

I met Young Marine and so began my new found interest in….boys.

February….

I divulge PC and mine idea of delving into cuckholding.  The road that has brought us here.  Ok so, I open up more about my private life.

Vegas was so fun and my stunningly sexy friend Lolita was so bummed she’d missed the trip, what did I do???  WENT TO VEGAS AGAIN! (for a night…yeah I know….a NIGHT, haha)

PC writes his first post…explaining the path that led us to consider cuckholding.  And follows it with a post called “Pandora’s Box”.

My Young Marine flew in for the wkend.  We had a whirlwind two day fuck fest tryst.

Old Spice released THE. BEST. COMMERCIAL ever!

PC decides after my weekend with YM that I need a local someone. To see regularly.  He sees how much I enjoy the exhilaration and scours Craigslist.  Where he finds Ashton (aka- Tall Glass of Yummy).  And we hit it off immediately.  That *click* PC recognizes I need and the only way I can be interested in someone…is instantaneous.  And so the adventures of Ashton and I begin (and continue for the next year).

March….

My sister and I attend Cheesefest 2010 go see Bon Jovi in concert.

I’m turned onto La Senza….the best lingerie store E.V.E.R (thanks Elle!)

PC’s and mine relationship is on a learning curve.  I try to explain our relationship and what makes it work a bit more….to everyone else.

I introduce “The Nineteen Year Old Hottie”….a girl I had a summer fling with before she went off to college.

PC and I head to California for Roxy’s annual Birthday Bash!  Donnie….*swoon*…. (Don Ramon Tequila for newbies *wink*)

April….

Spring comes…*yay*!!!  And with it the worst allergies I’ve ever experienced *groan*

Learn that if Ashton were Superman, his Kryptonite would be Brazilian Rum.  *ahem*

After years of playing TMI Tuesday, in it’s place I introduce (to my site) Tuesday Trysts.

My head space falters.  PC suggests that a good dose of sunshine, tequila and Roxy will fix that (it did…  *grins*).  So off to Roxy-ville I go.

After numerous Dr appointments and living with my pyschotic PMDD symptoms for an eternity years.  I go in for out-patient Endometrial Ablation surgery to be ‘fixed’.  And have an awful, awful time recovering… (gah)

Marriages take work (duh)….focus, focus, focus.  PC still makes my heart go aflutter.

May….

Trolls suck.  BFD has one attack her for being a mom AND a sexual being *gasp!!!* and I rant.

I delve into the idea behind NRE (New Relationship Energy)….and lust.  And finally see Ashton again after the surgery that laid me out for weeks.  I think we saw a movie (kinda…*wicked grins*).

Mothers Day.  *happy sigh* PC rocked it in a serious way.  Making my heart go pitter patter.  Amazing day.

Drama pops up in regards to RL bullshit.  I don’t handle stress.  Or drama.  very well….  Dealing with anxiety issues.

Off to Roxy-ville again.  Sunshine, tequila and Roxy….  *happy sigh* Snowboard gear poolside- screams southern California, no?!  Hehe….

June….

After much obsessing, I went and got my 8th tattoo!  Not my most impressive, but definitely one of my most meaningful.

I make a confession.  I’m incapable of swallowing.  Not for lack of trying. I just. can. not. do. it.  But I promise I make up for it in other ways!

PC’s son came to spend the month with us.  And it rained.  And rained.  And….raaaaaaaaaaained.

I run into my pool crush.  A girl I became friends with years before.  The Real L Word starts up!  *YAY!*  PC says one of the girls reminds him of me.  Hey, but wait, she’s a player!  Oh….damn.

But wait. I’m not so much a ‘player’….I’m an equal opportunity flirter!  Ha!  I promise if I dig you, you WILL know it.  Even if I suck at showing it enough sometimes.  (I’ve actually worked on this and improved upon it…I do learn from my mistakes).

A list of the 9 most awesomest places to have sex!  And their consequences (doh). Ok…so I maybe don’t completely agree…

July….

PC and I head to Roxyville to celebrate the 4th of July.  WOOT!  And, and, aaaaaaaaaaand with a special surprise in tow.  THE OS SHIRT!!!  After years of begging asking I finally get it in my possession.  We took full advantage of involving it in all sorts of debauchery.  *smirk*

Stupid funk.  Again. (seriously…..come on already….sigh)

Someone (ahemBFDahem) has a birthday!  I celebrate by making her er, um, cupcakes.  *wicked grins*

I discover my song.  The best song.  Ever.  *happy sigh*

We make our annual trip the The Ren Festival.

Many life changes….PC’s work schedule changes and we both try to figure out how to make ‘the new us’ work.  It’s scary.
It’s exciting.  But at the end of the day….I love him with all my
heart.

With the help of PC, we come to the realization of what might be causing my sudden onset of awful ‘funks’.  Introduce “HAPPY PILLS” and Psycho-Hot-Mess-No-More.  Yay!!!!

August….

PC and I celebrate our anniversary, I don’t know what he was thinking when he proposed to me.  But damn…I’m one lucky girl! *grins*

I have a Facebook Fan Page!  Wait…you didn’t know?!  Wha?!?!  Look in my sidebar, click “LIKE”, you know you wanna!  It’s a super easy way to follow me!

I take one last trip to Roxyville.  My monthly visits through out the summer helped my head space in such a serious way.  Roxy and I take a super hot photo shoot.  *wicked grins*

PC does some experimenting of his own…..  *winkwinksmirk*

I confront several issues I’ve been putting off.  Roxy’s coin-marked phrase ‘being in Ostrich-mode’ needs to come to an end.  *sigh*

I contemplate the idea of a MMF threesome.  Hmm……  An idea that used to repulse me is sounding rather intriguing now.  Wow how a girl can change in a year.  First I reconsider swearing off all men (thanks to the encouragement from the love of my life…PC) and next I’m fantasizing about being with two men!  Ha…who knew?!

Kiddos go back to school.  The pool closes for the season.  Summer is officially coming to an end.  (whaaa….)

We all have skeletons in our closet.  Mine chose to peek out.  And sometimes we open ourselves up to people and then later realize how much we actually exposed of ourselves….and wish we could take it all back.  So as not to feel so vulnerable.  And raw.

September….

I talk about my dating experiences with different dating sites.  Ashton set that freakin bar high- HIGH.  My quest to find someone even remotely comparable begins.  If nothing else, good blog fodder! (haha)

I become sick.  Not just ‘kind of sick’…I know how to do sick up RIGHT.  Over 6 weeks of being sick with a kick ass (and not in a good way) respiratory infection.  Fuck. Me.

The same day that my little girl turns 11 *gasp!* the stork delivers 5 babies to our house….3 little boys and 2 sweet girls.  I officially become a SAHM to Daisy’s second litter of pups.

PC and I continue to discuss our ‘rules’.  The only way this ‘thing’…with my playing…will work is with rules.  And constant, extremely open conversations.

After quite a few dates that can be summed up with- wha whaa waaaaaa…….  I meet Abercrombie/The Mechanic.  He’s no Ashton, that’s for sure (sigh….damnit) and he’s definitely only interested in a FB but…..hey.

PC celebrates a birthday!

Roxy and her stud of husband, Quicksilver, come into town to celebrate my birthday!  WOOT WOOT…. My sister and many of our other friends  join us downtown for margaritas and Coyote Ugly to party like rockstars.  *huge grins*

October….

Google me!  Or rather, I’m going to google YOU.  I never date someone who isn’t google-able.  I respect a person that introduces themselves as the real deal.

A close long time friend and I have to part ways because his wife is uncomfortable with him and I remaining friends because of who I am.  Sigh….bummed.

It’s getting hot in here!  My top 10 9 hottest, most favorite sexual adventures  to date!

Car sex is hot. Just sayin….

I love him.  He’s mine.  I need him.  We’re good together.  He makes me *comfortable*.

Just to reitterate- I live my life with the volume on loud.  I make no bones about who I am and how I like to live my life.  If it’s too hot in the kitchen, get out.

Abercrombie, the new boy toy found in September, fucks up.  Whatever. *cold shoulder*

I make #6 of the Best Sex Bloggers of 2010.  *WOO HOO*

THE EXOTIC BALL!!!! Sis and I go as Angels, PC as Hitgirl.  Super fun times….

November…..

Vegas Baby…uh huh.  BFD and I head to Sin City for five days, Coyote Ugly never knew what hit them *wink*
Sigh.  Swoon. …:::memories:::….

One of PC’s best quotes-
“It’s like being married to a flight attendant. You come home long enough to do your laundry and recharge before heading out again.“ (ha!)

I’ve met someone one…new.  Kind of on the sly I begin mentioning him.  The exotic ball….  Vegas….  *wicked grins*

Celebrate this blog’s 4th Blogaversary!  My my how things have changed since I began blogging 5 1/2 years ago.

I wonder sometimes if my expectations are too high.  Of the type of relationship I’m seeking…  I don’t know.  I just want to know that you’re into me!  You know?!

Mmm…..holiday flavored Martini’s woo me.  Oy.  Too much so.  I decide I have to break up.

(I miss her)

December….

Hottest. video. E.V.E.R……  Damn.  Girl knows how to work it. ...taking notes…

Bloglines announces it’s closing it’s doors.  Bummed.

Bloglines announces they are no longer closing it’s doors but rather have been acquired.  Oh.  But wait, with a few minor changes.  Annoyed.  Bye bye….

Sometimes life gets in the way.  You have to work at the sparkle!  (((PC)))

Vixen’s Bucket List of sexploits-

“I’m a try-sexual. I’ll try anything once.”
~Samantha (Sex and the City)

Luscious Lush.  Yes.  Hello, this is me.

Two words- Turtleneck Season.  Ashton says anyways…  *wicked grins*

Sometimes I wonder if I’m emotionally slutty.  Never mind.  I am.  I share too much and usually too soon.  Like blurting out my feelings to someone in such a way that they feel uncomfortable.  Direct much?  Sigh…hello.  This is me.

Temperatures yo-yo all over the fucking place.  Near 60′s one week.  Twenty below the next.

My list of the past years “Best of the Best HNT’s“.

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We’ve come a long ways baby.  *wink* Cheers….here’s to a new year!

~ xo

Vixen

~ Mae West

Friday Favorites-

France…Sometimes The World Begins…..

Elle…Kink Unleashed…..


Mama Still Wears Gucci…..

Barefoot Dreamer (I didn’t catch her before she went out of town to give me her pic, so you just have to go check her out for yourself!)

Remember thumbnails are only teasers, if you haven’t done so already go over and show them some love. Go on now- SCOOT!

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As you might have noticed, I haven’t been mentioning AFF much (ok, at all).  I actually hadn’t been on AFF for quite some time (and then it was just to delete the email build up) and finally this week I disabled my account.  There’s a reason for this, I have no need or desire to continue looking.  I’m good.

My profile was Female for Female (F4F), despite 4 years of searching, I hadn’t given up my search for that *one special girl*.  Then something happened.  Or rather SHE happened.  And Vegas with HER happened (*swoon*).   Pretty much since August I had kind of known I wasn’t searching anymore…  I wish she lived closer (desperately so) but she doesn’t (damnit)…..we both agree though that somehow we’ll make it work.  I’m just not someone who dates and ‘hooks up’ with random people, I never have been.  I’m not capable of it and I don’t enjoy it.  So while the distance is a bitch, I’m much too smitten with her to desire being with any other female.

On a different note.  I did actually meet a guy on AFF that I’ve been seeing regularly for the past 3 months.  Funny thing about having a F4F profile.  It doesn’t stop all guys from responding.  There are two camps of men who will respond to a F4F profile.  The dumbasses who don’t even read your profile and hit you up (usually crudely and distastefully so) and then the ones that actually have a tendency to catch my attention.  They are the particularly outgoing/adventurous ones who have the -“Hell, I’ll give it a shot” attitude (which I kind of admire, bc I think I possess this trait as well).  They notice it’s a F4F profile, and mention it in their initial email.  Along with some coercement (…I know this isn’t a word, add it to my list of made up words) of why I should consider giving them a chance to at least wine and dine me.

Which is how I met Johnny (not his real name- duh, not sure I’ll stick with it- he just happens to look a bit like Johnny from the original Karate Kid movie, according to PC).  I rarely respond to people on AFF.  It takes a lot to wow me with an email so that I feel even remotely like there could be a click.  And I sat on his for a quite awhile before responding.  When I finally did, we immediately clicked.  A bit like how Ashton and I did.  I knew after my initial correspondence with Ashton that there was a *significant* CLICK.  Similar feeling with Johnny.  This was back in October.  PC has met him and approves of him (he actually went out with PC, my sister and I to the Exotic Ball on Halloween).  He’s closer to my age (definitely for the best….the boys I was meeting -Ashton excluded- were killing me with their immaturity and games), is interested in the same type ‘thing/relationship’ I am (not a FB or complete NSA…which I’m mostly incapable of, much less desire), super funny, super cute and we really enjoy our time together.  Bonus all around.

Ashton and I remain in contact and I value our friendship tremendously.  He’s an amazing guy.  But his life is complicated and busy.

I couldn’t write all this without boasting/mentioning/gushing over the most important person in my life….PC.  The last month or so has been the best ever for us.  Some changes were made between us over the summer, not just between us, but personal ones as well.  We have been communicating better, getting along super well and just been over all incredibly balanced.  Which over all makes me super happy.  In a content …:::sigh happily:::… sort of a way.  There have been other stresses going on in our life, completely out of our control and he manages them amazingly well so that I, for the most part, don’t have to.  At the end of the day, he’s the one I come home to, am happy with and enjoy immensely the life we’ve built together.

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Ok.  Hope everyone has a fantabulous weekend!

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~ xo

Vixen