On beer consumption-

As I’m perched on the toilet seat painting my nails…
*PC picks up an empty can sitting next to an unopened beer on my dresser and looks quizzically at me*

PC- when we met did I know how much you liked beer?

Me- (indignantly) Yes!

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On change-

Change and I are not friends.  We are not even on the same page.  Ok, we’re not even in the same freakin’ book!  I’ve been using a Blackberry for over 4 years, when PC convinced me there were bigger and better things than a flip phone (hey! Don’t laugh….).  I looooooooooooooooved my BB.  We were inseparable.  Last spring for a total of 5 minutes I attempted something other than one and I swear PC was having a larger panic attack than I was regarding my reaction to it.  (my OCD issues are not to be debated here)  But.  After several beers the other night I was convinced with only minor feet dragging to try a smart phone.  Yes, Vixen and an HTC Shift have entered into a love/hate relationship.  I’ve been teased before by friends that my FB relationship status should say it was with my BB. 

The good news is I didn’t toss the phone back in PC’s lap while practicing deep breathing techniques with in 4 hours of bringing it home.  Course to ‘aide in a smoother transition’ he also has downloaded and synced every possible thing he can.  I do admit, I’m loving the keyboard.

I think the bad news is less phone related…our Airave is STILL not working (we live in a very rural area that is not conducive to cell service, this device works with our internet to provide us with better cell service).  After many phone calls and many hours spent on the phone with customer service….  Well. It’s still not working. Godsend when it works.  Bastard PITA when it doesn’t.
*grumble grumble*

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On her-

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On Computer Techy Stuff-

As some of you may have noticed…  My site was hacked and infected by Malware.  Interesting way in which they did it too.  They inserted the virus in the search engine.  When you pulled up the actual posts…nothing.  PC worked from Thursday night until Saturday afternoon on it.  Smart cookie that one is… *swoon*  Figured it out, got rid of it and all is restored in Vixen-land.
*whew*

YAY!!!

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Alrighty….Monday is here.  Enjoy!

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~ xo

Vixen

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. “Pooh!” he whispered. “Yes, Piglet?”
“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw. “I just wanted to be sure of you.”
~A.A. Milne

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Do you ever have so much to say.  Yet…nothing at all.

Or feel so much you…stop. Momentarily.

PC sometimes, on his bad days, talks about having so much noise in his head that he can’t think.  That he needs to quiet the noise.

I have the opposite.  So many emotions, thoughts, ‘stuff’ that instead of noise it’s just….blank.  There is nothing.  I can’t think.  Rather than my mind racing it’s just…still.  And silent.

Tuesday night I went for a long run.  Clearing my head.  Feeling the humidity and wind on my skin as the weather was clearing changing as a storm was coming in.  After wards I sat on the shore of the lake, letting the dogs play in the water to cool off.  Listening to the waves. 

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There is something so calming about the sound of waves.  The noise can be deafening as it hits the shore and the rocks.  But at the same time so…tranquil.  Everything else put on mute.

Right now I’m needing to focus on some things.  Regain my thoughts.  So I can think again.

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~ xo

Vixen

Friday Favorites-

So….Wp and I aren’t getting along tonight.  Pissy little bitch!  I rarely have issues with Wp (I mean hell, I’m like her biggest fan, what’s up with *that*?!) but tonight of all nights I do.  Unable to upload pics.  So instead you get links by their lonesome. 

(btw, this might also effect when TFT gets posted, my intention was to post on Sunday but with this little set back….you have been forewarned)

Minority Report

Kink Unleashed

Southern Girl

Obviously this week especially- click the links, hit the girls up.  Leave a comment and gush if you haven’t already.  They are so totally worth it!!!

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PC spent the entire week traveling.  It seems there are some major, life changing decisions to be made in our future….  *sigh*  His son went home Monday.  It’s amazing how quickly the time went by.  The kiddos loved being together again.  They really enjoyed each other and it was sad to see him go home so soon.

Had a bizarre/uncomfortable/intimate/TMI experience with the check out girl at Walgreens Thursday afternoon.  Will spare you the details but um…yeah.  While I appreciate overtly flirtatious (HELLO!)….maybe not so much in ‘this’ situation.  Right.

The other day LP and I had just left the house, rounding the lake in my Jeep and passed PC on his way up back home.  I blew him a kiss as he drove by.  LP ironically asked when I thought PC would be home.  Um….did you not just see us pass him and me blow him a kiss?  Yes.  She saw me blow the kiss.  No.  She did not see him per se.  Really!?  You just think I blow kisses to random strangers that drive by?!  Wait.  Never mind.  Don’t answer that.  (doh)

PC, the little Princess Dog (aka Phoebe) and I are flying out early Friday morning for Roxy-ville (aka California).  I haven’t mentioned it but I have a secret in my possession.  Something I have longed for, yearned for….begged for.  For YEARS it feels like (ok, it really has been years, lol). THE OS SHIRT is mine, all miiiiine!!!  Bwahahaha!!!  Ok, ok, fine, you know for the next week or so. *snort* The Os shirt will be coming to Cali with me.  Roxy and I have been plotting for over a week now.  Oh the naughty things I am going to subject to it.  We’re going to corrupt it for sure.  ~wicked grins~ 
(fuck, and you know, it just occurred to me that I should have TOTALLY taken pics of Ashton- aka Yummy…keep up with me people, I know it seems confusing- in it/with it the other night when I had him over for a sleep over.  Damnit!  Apparently my brain turns to mush around the adorableness of that boy…..)

Definitely look for a special post Sunday.  I’ll be back Monday.  Have a fabulous holiday weekend!

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~ xo

Vixen

~Richard Webber

Repeat. Repeat. Repeat…..

PC wants to change cell phone service.  Me and change?  Yeah…we’re not friends so much.  Don’t ask me why the idea of change makes my anxiety shoot through the roof. But a new phone means I need to learn all it’s NEW features.  And a new service means I may or may not get as shitty coverage as I do already (can’t call it great when I can send/receive texts and emails in three spots in my entire house… *lol*).  I did finally agree to *try* a new phone with the new service.  Everyone on FB has heard me gripe, but I’m not sure I’ve mentioned here….  Last weekend my BlackBerry decided to stop working very reliably.  So the talk of a new phone was already in the midst.  Anyway, long story short.  While I had high hopes of pretending to be someone I’m so totally not trying something new and different that I might possibly fall in love with, I ended up with another BlackBerry.  But the newer, improved version which replaced the trackball with a trackpad.  At least I can take comfort in knowing how the thing works.  Now just wish me luck with the service…..

I’m thinking it might be a bit weird that the movie Jennifer’s Body turns me on as much as it does.  I mean Megan Fox is hotter than fuck but she’s awful….demonic and evil.  And not high school evil, evil EVIL.  But seriously, watching Jennifer’s Body is like porn to me.  GOOD porn.  Hmm…..

I’ve been considering changing my avatar.  For almost five years I’ve had the same avatar. I think people identify and recognize ‘me’ when they see the little pink plaid skirt in their comments.  But sometimes change is good, no?  I have a pic in mind, from the  “Rock n Roll Princess” series.  Thoughts????

YM is being deployed to Afghanistan this week, for the next eight months.  It saddens me. On several levels.  Over the last few months we’ve become great friends, of sorts, more than anything else.  I will miss him.  He really wanted to see me before he left.  But.  I shied away.  I had really no interest on that level.  I feel kind of badly I guess about that.  I just didn’t want to.  I know it has quite a bit to do with Yummy (or as PC likes to tease me, ‘Ashton’, doh).  My plate feels fairly complete right now….with PC, with Yummy (whom there is this awesome ‘click’ with and I’m liking an awful lot).  But still, him leaving is laying heavily on my mind.  My heart goes out to his family.

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Kiddos have the entire week off for Spring Break.  So far it seems the weather might actually hold out and be nice.  Which will certainly make entertaining them MUCH easier.  Still, doesn’t stop me from wishing we were spending the week in California soaking up Roxy’s sun.  ~wink~

~ xo

Vixen

Friday Favorites-

Emmy…..

Sexy Sadie…..

Cheeky Minx.….

Scintillectual…..

Autumn…..


Path of Passion…..

Click on the links and go visit the lovely ladies! Show ‘em some love.

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So, the Bon Jovi concert.  I had assured my sister I could still have fun with us going out and me not drinking.  Very rarely am I the designated driver….. actually, can’t remember the last time I was.  Um…it’s been THAT long (doh!).  We always drag PC along and it’s his job that he quite willingly does.  I have to admit, it’s sometimes probably for the best to have him along to keep us….not so much in check, but ‘safe’.  KWIM?  I’ve mentioned my sometimes lack of common sense when I drink (remember my ‘drunk girl, sometimes stupid’ post????).  Anyway.  I think she did worry at one point that while I had assured her I could have fun not drinking, when I turned down the round of Patron shots (I know…ME turn down Patron?!  *shaking head*) she wondered if SHE could have fun w/ me not drinking.  It all worked out though.

We did have a good time at the concert that we have affectionately dubbed- Cheesefest 2010.  I honestly do NOT remember him being as cheesy/corny as he was.  The spirit fingers, jazz hands, booty shaking, jumping jack-type-dance….was a bit much. *snort* Not to the mention the 50something crowd everfreakinwhere that were seriously *SWOONING* over him and his ridiculousness.  I only had beer spilt on me several times by the woman who danced and screamed the. entire. time.  I’m pretty sure she was his biggest fan.  That lucky Bon Jovi….  ~wink~

Eventually we left bc we were over him to beat traffic. I suggested we hit the dive bar near her house.  I have to say the FUNNIEST/HIGHLIGHT of the night was my VERY straight sister being kissed by a way overly drunk girl trying to bum a cigarette.  When I informed Drunk Girl that I didn’t smoke and therefore did not have a cigarette she could bribe off of me, she became all eyes for my sister.  The look on my sisters face and watching Drunk Girl try to redeem sexual favors for a stupid cigarette were….comical, to say the least.

And apparently neither of us were the brightest of bulbs that night…..   The cute bartender we were schmoozing with kept asking what our plans were after the bar closed (we were there until closing).  We both realized (after the fact!!!) that he’d actually been hoping we’d invite him to go someplace else with us after wards.  Oh.  Oh!  Uh.  Duh!  (maybe it was my lack of alcohol combined with the amount she’d had???  ….IDK…….) But again.  DUH!

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I requested my Web Bitch to do some work on my site.  Wanted to point out several new (ok one is new, one is fixed) features.  People have brought it to my attention *coughSagecough* that there is no way to follow comments on posts of interest.  The other being that you used to be able to click on my header and it brought you ‘home’….but after  PC re-vamped my header last fall (the one the totally awesome Roxy made for my last birthday *GRINS*) it quit working.  I kissed up asked nicely and PC made the changes for me.  I should mention, my site is not easy to work on. So let it be known the man seriously ROCKS, definitely a keeper.

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It’s come to my attention recently that I probably should give some more….information regarding PC and what he is gaining from my….extramarital affairs.  Quite a few of you are having a difficult time wrapping your head around what PC is getting out of it all.  Bc despite what he keeps saying about making my happiness #1, some have an even more difficult time wrapping their heads around THAT (remember though, we are firm believers that relationships are not quid pro quo). There has been expressed confusion, concern, curiosity, whatever about it and how he can be ‘OK’ with it.  I realize sometimes I’m very…..elusive, evasive about many some of the details I share.  It’s just how I am and what I am comfortable with.  PC is much more blatant about what he would share (which is evident in the few posts he’s written….that I’ve had to edit for my level of ‘okayness’, lol).  But that said, I think it is time to give a bit more insight so as not to come off as a selfish bitch in my marriage.  That post is coming.  It’s taking some processing and thinking on my part.

I also wanted to mention though, that while I’ve only just begun talking more openly about it here, as well as realizing I do find myself attracted to certain men…..  Our marriage has been open to me seeing/dating females since…well, the beginning.  So while certain aspects of ‘this’ are new-ish, the general concept isn’t.

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Have a perfectly fabulous weekend.  Mine is jam packed with fun stuff.

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~ xo

Vixen