“I revealed too much too soon. I was emotionally slutty.”
~Carrie Bradshaw- Sex and the City

This is so me…. (usually)  I have a tendency to share way too much.  Usually too soon.  And not always with people who want to even know (this much) such information.  Then later wish I could pull at least some of it back.  I saw a therapist off and on over the years.  I either had nothing to say or just dumped.  Like vomit.  About everything.  Relevant or not.  I’m pretty sure I did this to my sister the other day.  Completely unintentionally.  Despite my not meaning to.  But I think having to do with my recent lack of having/feeling an ‘off switch’….

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I’ve been feeling so detached lately.  Emotionally….stand off-ish and distant.  I just seem to be going through the day to day motions.  Some days I’m a weepy mess.  Am I depressed?  Possibly…  I don’t know why though.  (Having my kiddos gone for six days before Christmas I don’t think helped)  Don’t you have to feel something to be depressed???  PC asked if I was taking my meds.  Yes…I am.  Maybe I need to up them again? (he suggested)  I don’t know…

Everyone has noticed.  My sister.  Roxy.  BFD.  PC…  I had to try to explain to him, that it’s everyone I’m withdrawn from.  It has nothing to do with him specifically but everything to do with me.

Writing a post feels like work.  Because it means having to evoke emotion.  *Think*  And I just…can’t.  Why??? 

I need to try to figure out what is going on with me.  And fix it.  *sigh*  Sometimes finally voicing it, talking about it…helps.  I guess we’ll see.  I just want to feel like myself again.  Hell. I just want to feel anything again.

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All of this aside though.  We, I, had a really good Christmas.  My dad and I used to be quite close, then became distant many, many years ago, completely losing any sort of a relationship (for reasons I don’t want to go into here) and over the last year things have turned around.  My sister, dad and I really enjoyed the day together. 

Later that night, LP and I sang karaoke.  Singing Hinders “Lips of an Angel” over and over again…because that’s what she was best at and enjoyed singing the most.  PC and I enjoyed an evening laying in bed, watching TV together (who cares that it was some ridiculous scary movie that we both rolled our eyes, laughing at)….

Anyway.  I’m going to keep trying to work on the ‘normal’ stuff.  To try to get back to feeling again.

~ xo

Vixen

~Eric Sevareid

I’ve put this up previous years and it’s one of those posts that are fun to recycle.  *grins*

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Barbie
c/o Mattel, Inc.
El Segundo, CA 90245

Yours truly,
Barbie

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So. My kiddos have been gone for 6 days and we finally get them back Christmas Eve.  It was a long ass time to be with out them.  But I busied myself with Christmas shopping, lusting after BFD, wrapping presents, drinking heavily, several date nights with PC (swoon), suffering from insomnia (2:00am and I have become very dear friends), dinner with friends, watching favorite movies repeatedly (gotta love HBO’s rerun of movies late at night), quite a few really great runs in our awesome mild weather, hot hot sex and a date (maybe more to come about that…). 

A special post will go up tomorrow.  Don’t forget to stop back by when you get a chance!  In the meantime, have a great Christmas Eve!

~ xo

Vixen

He who has not Christmas in his heart will never find it under a tree.
~Roy L. Smith

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HappyHNT!!!

~ xo

Vixen

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The traditional HNT themes begin next week!

HappyHNT!!!

~ xo

Vixen

Ah…I’m a bit relieved to have the rush of Christmas come to an end. We had an incredible one, very much so. But gah am I run ragged. SO much was packed into the days between Wednesday and Sunday.

PC and I celebrated the night before Christmas Eve (did you follow that?! *LOL*) at The Melting Pot. It’s our most favoritest place to go. Sooooo romantic and *YUMMY*!  Have I mentioned my obsession with cheese?!  Mmmmm……..  And when our fabulous waiter (seriously, of all the times we’ve gone this time was close to the best) found out I was a vegetarian he brought an additional plate of exotic veggies for me- on the house, to boot! 

…::HAPPY SIGH::….

The only downside was that Santa decided to grace us with a White Christmas by dropping a massive snow storm on us.  It snowed.  And snowed.  OMFG….SO. MUCH. SNOW.

Much prettier to look at in pictures than it was to drive two hours home in (or uh, wait for our car to be brought up from valet bc they had lost the keys to the vehicle that had been parked directly in front of ours- BRRRR.).

Christmas morning came and surprisingly, the same little boy that had asked while I was tucking him in ‘the earliest he could get up’ had to be woken up at 7:00 a/m!  The DOGS were ready to get up before the kiddos were.  WTF?!

Santa knows what to get a shoe whore……

Fabulous shoes!
(Betsey Johnson seriously makes THE most wicked cool shoes)

And fabulous boots.

 
BUT.  The biggest surprise was this:

The Olympus E-P2.  A few months back I started talking about wanting to upgrade to a nicer camera.  If you read my Holiday Gift Guide (tsk, tsk, you should have!) I posted earlier in Dec, one very similar to this one was near the top of Maxum’s list.  I am in *lust*.

And…. *drum roll please*  The biggest of all presents…..


Have you guessed yet?!?!


My sister, Roxy and I are going to Vegas Baby!!!!  Mid-January.  Look out….can the town handle the three of us?!  Hehe….  We are GIDDY with excitement!

LM’s favoritest present…..  What all little boys want- creepy Wolfman costumes, no?!  Seriously, I’ve told you about his weird costume obsession, lol.

All PC wants for Christmas is um….cleavage?  *snort*
(I didn’t crop this pic, it downloaded like this)

AND finally, what Vixen, the adoring wife who knows just the right gift to buy her husband who has everything Santa got PC……

The tattoo he has been lusting after/hinting for/we’ve talked about for over 3 years now.  Let me tell you, it’s DIFFICULT to measure, plan, colaborate and *SURPRISE* your husband with a tattoo!  But I did it.  *grins*

Valkyrie Wings!  The outline at least.  It took our tattoo artist 2.5hours to complete the first phase (second phase will include shadowing/shading/details of the feathers).  He said it hurt like fucking hell barely at all. ~wink~

Christmas gift suggestions:
To your enemy, forgiveness.
To an opponent, tolerance.
To a friend, your heart.
To a customer, service.
To all, charity.
To every child, a good example.
To yourself, respect.
~Oren Arnold

Hope your holiday was awesome.  New Years is just around the corner!

~ xo

Vixen

~ xo

Vixen

CQW will be back next week. In the meantime- more ‘fluff’.

(Sung to Holly Jolly Christmas)

Have a hottie naughty Christmas!
It’s the breast time of the year!
Lotsa “elves”,
With lovely shelves,
And red-furred white-trimmed rears!

Have a hottie naughty Christmas!
Ev’ry Star Trek geek’ll cheer -
“Oh my Scotty, beam me up a naughty Christmas, this year!”

(***sultry sleigh-bell interlewd***)

Have a hottie naughty Christmas!
With a case or two of beer -
Get her blotty!
Have a hottie naughty
Christmas,
This year!

~grin~

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Happy HUMP Day!!!

~ xo

Vixen

Another week of no TMI for me, you get another qued post of Xmas fun.  I’m in charge of TMI for the next two weeks though so I’ll definitely be playing next week.  And hey, if you have any burning/fun/naughty questions your dying to have used for TMI send them on over, help a gal out. ~grins~

1. Trim his tree.

3. Be his “ho-ho-ho” for the holidays.

4. Polish his Christmas balls.

8. Fa, la, la, latio – la, la, la, la.

9. Spark his menorah with a hot strip tease.

12. Gift wrap yourself in sexy lingerie.

13. Unwrap his package.

19. Dress up as Santa’s nasty little helper.

20. Make sure you’re naughty, so it’s nice.

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TFT is up!  I had SO many come forward to make this week’s Holiday Themed TFT special and fun.  Which totally rocks.  Thank you everyone who contributed this week!  Anyone can join in on the fun AND it’s for good cause.  All you have to do is snap and send!  Email ‘em HERE!

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Four more days until Christmas!!!  Have a fabulous Tuesday!

~ xo

Vixen

Some of these are kind of dorky, but sweet at the same time, so I thought I would post this.

1. Bubble bath and a coupon for a romantic bath for two



2. Glow in the dark stars and a coupon for picnic in bed.
3. Candles and a coupon for a candlelight dinner for two
4. Play money and a coupon for a striptease (think Santa Baby by Madonna)
5. Lotion and a coupon for a massage
6. Temporary tattoos and a coupon for him to put them in the place of his choice.
7. Small photo album and coupon for a private photo session
8. A trail of ribbon leading to me (him/her) tied with a bow and a coupon for “Anything goes- Redeem NOW”



9.  An ice cream scoop and coupon for a decadent banana split
10.  Pretend police badge set and a coupon for an evening of cops and robbers
11.  An audio cassette recorded with a special audio love letter a coupon for sweet nothings to be whispered LIVE
12. A pair of Christmas boxers with mistletoe pinned on them.

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TFT is up!

~*~**~Theme Alert~*~**~
For the next two weeks I will be collecting pictures for a special HOLIDAY/CHRISTMAS themed TFT. Use your imagination, get creative and festive! Then click and send. Many of our contributors rocked last year when I did this, so c’mon!

Of course, feel free to send me other boob/moob pics (holiday/Christmas themed or not!) in the meantime for the preceding weeks. We continue to have some great men and women each week. Some repeat contributors, others brand spankin’ new….every one of them super awesome. Don’t forget to tell me how you would like to be credited and/or linked. You can even remain anonymous if you would like.

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Enjoy your Tuesday!

(vi.sualize.us)

~ xo

Vixen