I am so very rarely completely taken out by an illness and this one (sinus infection, double ear infection…both infections are aggravating my sore throat and cough) has just seriously knocked me on my ass. Blech…. I know I am seriously behind on replying to my comments and I feel badly for that. I will catch up, I promise.
I did manage to get TFT up. It’s very low on the contributor side. Please help me out. The site is only made possible by the wonderful contributors. I know with kiddos going back to school, the Labor Day weekend, etc people have been very busy. Please, please, please SEND your boob/moob shots in. ANYONE can contribute- men, women, anonymously, I can credit you however you wish (it’s great publicity for your site!)…. People I am easy! ~grins~ You can also email me for information or with your questions.
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As you probably guessed, there is no CQW this week. Although I do luckily have something already qued for HNT, so whether I’m feeling better or not something of substance will go up. *WHEW*
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Funny, no? Bwahaha…
~ xo
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Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. “Pooh!” he whispered. “Yes, Piglet?”
“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw. “I just wanted to be sure of you.”
~A.A. Milne
(vi.sualize.us)
Do you ever have so much to say. Yet…nothing at all.
Or feel so much you…stop. Momentarily.
PC sometimes, on his bad days, talks about having so much noise in his head that he can’t think. That he needs to quiet the noise.
I have the opposite. So many emotions, thoughts, ‘stuff’ that instead of noise it’s just….blank. There is nothing. I can’t think. Rather than my mind racing it’s just…still. And silent.
Tuesday night I went for a long run. Clearing my head. Feeling the humidity and wind on my skin as the weather was clearing changing as a storm was coming in. After wards I sat on the shore of the lake, letting the dogs play in the water to cool off. Listening to the waves.
(vi.sualize.us)
There is something so calming about the sound of waves. The noise can be deafening as it hits the shore and the rocks. But at the same time so…tranquil. Everything else put on mute.
Right now I’m needing to focus on some things. Regain my thoughts. So I can think again.
(vi.sualize.us)
~ xo
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Haven’t done this in awhile…. This is my new favorite song on my playlist. Kinda plays into my mood this week a bit.
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So. I had actually been working on a CQW post and found myself feeling anxious and overwhelmed by the time and thought I was having to put into it. And I ended up saying- screw it. Instead what you get is random jumble of thoughts. I mentioned too that I’d like to use the case I served as a juror in for some CQW topics. I’m having a hard time though processing my thoughts regarding it. I guess, quite honestly, it really traumatized me on several levels. The judgement placed on what I thought was a ‘normal’ teenage boy. The insanity of what an angry father did… I’m finally just now not having disturbing dreams about it. Gah. Not fun stuff.
My mind is racing. I need it to slow the fuck down. The unfortunate fun part of my neurosis is that I become overwhelmed easily. And when I’m overwhelmed I become frazzled and unable to concentrate or think clearly and often times in turn I get very irritable. I admit it, I don’t handle stress very well. Or being overwhelmed.
*deep breaths*
I am overwhelmed. The time change- while I LOVE the added light- has seriously fucked up my sleeping habits. Or rather, lack there of. I’ve gotten a handful of hours of sleep this week and had a completely crazy busy week. PC and I are heading to California on Thursday (more to come on this tomorrow….stay tuned ~wink~). I’ve had a slew of things to get done before we leave…getting the house and animals ready for their babysitter to come stay with them. Prepping for us to be gone. Laundry. Packing. And not just for *us* but for the kiddos who are staying with their grandparents. Arrangements for pick ups and drop offs. Primping appointments (what?! I’m a girl! Don’t act like you all are surprised!). The list goes on.
But it will all be worth it come Thursday afternoon when I take my first sip of beer and am amongst super awesome friends in warm temps, with palm trees in my view. Ahhh…..
I do have to say, our weather has been FABULOUS. Which definitely makes me a bit more sun-shiney. I’ve gotten in some incredible runs and am finally feeling back in shape after such a long, rough winter. I was forced to take SO much time off this winter. From when I badly cut my foot last fall, to being constantly so so sick (I swear my lungs are just finally feeling ‘normal’ again), and then the harsh winter where snow was almost always on the ground. Yeah…put a damper on things. Temps and snow I can work around with the treadmill. A cut foot and being sick all winter…not so much.
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Packing…. Got my jeans, bikini, tank tops, sweatshirt, large long haired cat….. Does he know he’s not coming with??? *snicker
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Happy HUMP Day!!!
~xo
Vixen
I offer this advice for someone no longer in my life.
I rarely see this person. I have next to no contact with them. But we are forever tied by two precious entities. I have made mistakes in my life. I have taken roads possibly I shouldn’t have. Wished I’d made different, better choices for myself. I could harbor animosity and anger over a great number of things. From the past and the present….concerning this person.
But I don’t.
I.
just.
don’t.
But he does.
*shrug*
Oh well.
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I know I said CQW would be back this week but fuck if I’m not feeling run ragged and stressed. We have done SO much driving and running around since the kids got out of school last week. Children transporters extraordinaire.
Don’t get me wrong, I have enjoyed the holiday. I always do. But now with New Years just around the corner and extravagant plans having been made….it seems one of the many things that I’m not finding time for is Blogland (my OCD is in massive overdrive and I’m putting so many things aside which only makes my OCD *worse*). I appologize to my friends who’s blogs I haven’t been by, I miss you all. So rather than post something I know I won’t have time to follow up on or respond to (which I like to do with CQW in particular), I will postpone the topic for next week. Tune in for HNT though! One more theme- Year End Favorite. Followed by a special Year End Friday Favorites!
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Happy HUMP Day!!!
~ xo
Vixen
