Since February I have been struggling with ongoing chronic pelvic pain, sometimes debilitatingly so. Numerous dr appointments, bloodwork, tests, numerous days...weeks...spent on bedrest and so.many.pills. I've been diagnosed with PFTM and Adenomysosis. Some days are better than others. Almost like a blessing in disguise SM was laid off near the beginning of the year. And he's been amazing. I thank god every day for him. He's taken over the housecleaning, laundry, caring for the animals, helping the kiddos get ready for school, etc. I could never explain how thankful I am for him. To have found someone who cares for me so deeply and unconditionally.
Three years ago I had a surgery (Endometrial Ablation) in hopes of alleviating these same issues and avoiding a more serious surgery. It was a horrible, awful recovery...weeks upon weeks. But once I had finally recovered I was very happy with the outcome. Until now.... I am taking a plethora of heavy time-release narcotics, muscle relaxers, vitamin supplements, anti-depressants...which for obvious reasons I can not continue to take long term. The procedure I had Wednesday confirmed that I've run out of options.
~ xo
Vixen
For women who experience severe discomfort from adenomyosis, certain treatments can help, but hysterectomy is the only cure. ~Mayo Clinic*sigh* Honestly as this point, it'll be a blessing.
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She acts like spring
& walks like rain
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day?
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?
They slipped briskly into an intimacy...
...from which they never recovered.
~F. Scott Fitzgerald~ xo Vixen
In that moment he needed to consume her...
...fill her...to mark her as his.
Just as she needed to open herself to him, to be desired, taken....
...owned.~ xo Vixen
Time stands still Beauty in all she is I will be brave I will not let anything take away What's standing in front of me Every breath Every hour has come to this One step closer Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I love you for a thousand more One step closer I have died everyday waiting for you
And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I love you for a thousand more~ xo Vixen
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