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I had a deep dark secret from my childhood slam me in the face on Sunday.  Hard.

At first I was taken off guard.  Shocked.  Surprised.  But then as the day wore on, into the night and then the next day….and the memories and emotions and feelings starting bubbling up and over.  Things I haven’t thought about or talked about in over twenty years.  And I felt myself suffocating from anxiety, of being overwhelmed…

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And I shared some of this information with someone close to me.  But then walked away feeling overly exposed and very, very raw.  Worrying.  Regretting.  Obsessing.

My sister pointed something out to me.  That was rather eye opening.  I am a very open person.  But I am very open about things that I am comfortable with.  Which is many/most things but that I have several boxes that I keep tightly closed, off limits, that I don’t share very openly about.  She said I was being unfair to myself.  And that maybe that is where ‘these feelings’ were coming from…

Have I mentioned how much I *heart* my sister? 

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PC came home mid day, to be with me.  He brought lunch from a new sandwich shop I’d been wanting to try…knowing if he didn’t, I probably wouldn’t have eaten.  He didn’t have to come home.  But he did because he was worried and wanted to be with me.  I was able to shut the buzz of my thoughts down long enough to rest.  Something I struggle with…

Have I mentioned how much I *heart* my husband?

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~ xo

Vixen

I’ve been thinking quite a bit about what it would be like to experience a positive M/F/M threesome.  You know, as opposed to the experience I had that sucked (no pun intended) and I swore I would never participate in such an activity again…..  I actually used to be fairly turned off by the idea of threesomes in general.  So many emotions and feelings involved, someone inevitably feels left out, which causes issues.  Which can lead to drama.  You all know how I feel about drama! But I’ve had more positive experiences that have led to a more positive position (again, ha, no pun intended) on the idea.  It can work.  It can be drama free.  It can be A LOT of fun.  With the right people.

Part of our cuckhold talk for numerous years between PC and I have involved the idea of a M/F/M scenario.  Fun to talk about in bed, in the heat of the moment, as a ‘turn on’ tool…but to actually go through with?  Yeah, very different.  And I have been….reluctant to proceed.  But as of late, the idea is intriguing me more and more. 

I am becoming much more open to the idea, let’s just say.

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I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

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~ xo

Vixen

The lights are out and I barely know you

We’re going up and the place is slowing down

I knew you’d come around

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You captivate me, something about you has got me

I was lonely now you make me feel alive

Will you be mine tonight?

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Take me on the floor

I can’t take it any more

I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love

Just take me on the floor

I can give you more

You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

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My heart is racing as you’re moving closer

You take me higher with every breath I take

Would it be wrong to stay?

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One look at you and I know what you’re thinking

Time’s a bitch and my heart is sinking down

You turn me inside out

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Take me on the floor

I can’t take it any more

I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love

Just take me on the floor

I can give you more

You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

(vi.sualize.us)

I wanna kiss a girl

I wanna kiss a girl

I wanna kiss a boy

I wanna …

(vi.sualize.us)

I wanna kiss a girl

I wanna kiss a boy

I wanna kiss a girl

(vi.sualize.us)

Take me on the floor

I can’t take it any more

I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love

Just take me on the floor

I can give you more

You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

(vi.sualize.us)

Take me on the floor

I can’t take it any more

I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love

Just take me on the floor

I can give you more

You kill me, you kill me, you kill me

Please don’t stop!

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~The Veronicas

Inspired by a certain, um, someone.  *ahem*  She knows who she is….
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I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

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~ xo

Vixen

So….here is where I try not to put you to sleep with boring vacation pictures. I try to make them a bit more exciting than being invited to your neighbors house to see their vacation pics. 

Friday-
Quicksilver picked me up from the airport and we headed to meet Roxy and BABD (big ass biker dude) for ‘lunch’ (it was like 3:00 lol) at their favorite Mexican restaurant.  *YUM*  After wards we sent the boys to do some food/liquor shopping (bc you can do that in Ca in the same store! *jealous*) and us girls headed to get our toes done.  Roxy has the best place EVER, I tell her I go out there to visit her, but really it’s her nail place (shhh…. ~wink~, I’m kidding of course.  Kind of).

Got back to the house to find the boys had decided to take an afternoon siesta.  Wakey wakey eggs and bacey, time to get your drink on!
(oh but notice not Sadie….from sun up to sun down she chases flies like it’s her job.  Silly girl)

Roxy double fisting it.

Boys.

The yummy couple.  Adorable, no?!

Let’s play girl toss!

Roxy and I

Molesting Roxy….wha?!  She had her boobs in my face, what’s a girl to do?! ~giggle~

Nice Quicksilver, flipping the bird

Their hot next door neighbor arrives and BABD can hardly contain himself with all those boobs in one place! (Umm…apparently me neither.  Doh!)

Oh look! BOOBS! *LICK*

Roxy is like- “Dude, get your tongue off my boobs already!”  *snort*
Yes.  If nothing else we are goofy.  We have picture upon picture of Hot Neighbor Girl with this ‘grin’ that screams ‘Okay then….’.  Haha!

Mmmm….Cranberry/Vodka with two olives. It’s quite possible Roxy only remembers from here on out bc pictures were taken. (Notice how much she seems to be enjoying her olive?!  hehe…)

Apparently I was quite the flasher that night (right, what else is new…).  I’m going to save you the 20 5 other pictures where I can’t seem to keep my pants on.  Or shirt.  *ahem*  Gotta love Quicksilver though.

Bubbles.  Lots.  And lots.  Of bubbles.  What isn’t exactly easy to see here is that Sadie (my German furry girlfriend, remember her?  The fly chaser?) was trying to drink out of our cups.  No no Sadie…no Vodka for you!

We realized at some point that we never ate dinner.  Doh.  Roxy was feeling less than stellar (huge understatement) and after tucking her into bed Quicksilver and I stuffed our faces ate.  I am positive that was my saving grace the next morning.  Oh.  And the bottle of water Quicksilver put me to bed with….after I passed out on the couch. (doh)

Saturday-
Poor poor Roxy…..  Vodka is her nemesis.  They have such a love/hate relationship.  Besides not being able to remember the entire night- what? you don’t remember when Quicksilver and I did that one thing to you!?  Or when you did that other thing I love so much?!  *wicked grins*  I guess you know it’s bad when even after viewing pictures from the night before your memory isn’t jogged even a tad *snort* She felt like CRAP the next morning, er um day. 

Pretty girl Caedyn.  Kiya’s twin sister.  It was this time last year that I brought teeny tiny baby girl Caedyn out to Roxy.  Ah…memories.

Convinced Roxy some sun and Strawberry margaritas might be just the ticket to ease her hang over.  Ok.  No Margs for her, but the rest of us indulged. Mmm….
Boys with toys…Peterbilt maragarita maker!  I’d expect nothing nothing less from Quicksilver and BABD.

Ice…

Tequila and fresh strawberries!

Um.  Right.  Hi.

Roxy’s Dispicable Me shadow.  Bwahaha…. 

Girlies in bubbles

Don’t act surprised I’m molesting her again.  She’s like “STOOOOOOP already”

I like your beard. (stealing lyrics from Kesha)

I like your bubbles (coin phrased by Roxy and I *giggle*)

Ooops.  We forgot to eat dinner again.  Strawberries and cream will have to do!

 *poof*

Sunday-

*groan*
I have blood sugar issues that I struggle with regularly and Vixen not eating= no bueno.  Drinking all weekend and also NOT eating= muy no bueno.  Yummy breakfast place helped slightly (as well as coooffffeeeee).  They even saved me from having to wear the completely embarassing “Its your first time here” hat.  *snort*  (thanks, love you guys)

Sad goodbyes at the airport. (sigh)
Very turbulent flight home (as in the plane kept suddenly *dropping* giving the sensation it was falling from the fucking sky and I had forced visions of being cast involuntarily for Lost part 2) .
Met by happy (albeit sick- LP STILL has the flu!  Blech) children and very horny husband.  Ha!

Home sweet home. (happy sigh)

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ANYONE can contribute. Girl, guy, couple, hell, your entire fraternity/bachelorette party… Snap. Send. It’s all cool. Be as simple, artsy, or whatever…as you’d like. It doesn’t have to be anything special! Or make it be. Hey, my point is, whatever you feel comfortable doing- I’ll take it and put up. ALSO, you can contribute anonymously if your little heart so desires. OR let me know how you would like to be linked/titled.

I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

Email me HERE or even HERE….

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Vixen

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My back to the wall.  His body against mine.  Our lips meet. 

He grabs my ass.  As he lifts me up.  I wrap my legs around his waist. 

The rain falling over us.  Cold.  Wet.  Soaking.  But at the same time, barely noticeable. 

We kiss.  Passionately.  Intensely.

Sinking to the ground.  Me in his lap.  His hands against the small of my back.  The back of my head.  Tangling his fingers into my wet hair.  Pushing our lips closer.  His hot breath against mine.  His kisses becoming more urgent.  Completely drenched by the rain.  Dripping.  Everywhere. Down his eyelashes into my mouth…..

This is when I love the rain.

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TFT is up!

ANYONE can contribute. Girl, guy, couple, hell, your entire fraternity/bachelorette party… Snap. Send. It’s all cool. Be as simple, artsy, or whatever…as you’d like. It doesn’t have to be anything special! Or make it be. Hey, my point is, whatever you feel comfortable doing- I’ll take it and put up. ALSO, you can contribute anonymously if your little heart so desires. OR let me know how you would like to be linked/titled.

I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

Email me HERE or even HERE….

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Have a fabulous Tuesday!!!

~ xo

Vixen

Emmy did a post on ‘getting to know you’, which in itself is fascinating, but she took a spin on it.  She chose to list 10 things next to her bed.  Which….how interesting is that?!  Bc seriously, I’m guessing what’s next to my bed is completely different then what is next to YOUR bed!

ETA: And THEN I found out that the lovely Beryl had actually tagged me and suggested I do the same thing so, how’s that for ya?!  It’s ESPN I tell you!  *snort* (teasing…get it?)

1. My Blackberry and it’s charger.  I have been teased that I should switch my relationship status on FB to ‘being in a relationship with my BB’.  It’s true.  I am very, very rarely with out.  And it charges next to my bed. I do, however, turn off the sound when I go to bed.  Bc my various texts, emails, etc were driving PC batty through out the night.

2. ChapStick- I am a chapstick whore (but a very specific style Chapstick- either the Vanilla Mint or the Moisturizer kind, any other feels like I’m trying to rub wax on my lips). 

We live in a very dry climate and I use it all. the. time.  Miserable with out. It’s also in my bathroom, my purse, the kitchen…. you get the idea.

3. The household phone, or more specifically the base.  PC has a phoneline. And the kids and I share a phoneline.  Mine barely rings and when it does it’s my sister or PC. I’m not a fan of talking on the phone.  Everyone who knows me, knows this about me.  If you want to reach me- text me.  I will answer (or return your phone call) when I feel it’s absolutely necessary or important.  LP and I also walk around with the phone.  So rarely is the phone actually where it belongs and when it rings, it’s a mad hunt to find it….to read the caller id, bc obviously, I’m most likely not going to answer it.

4. Whatever book I’m reading.  I’m always reading something. I love to read. It’s a great escape.  Especially late at night when I can’t sleep.  I tend to get stuck on particular authors and read everything they write before I move on to something different (OCD….you didn’t forget did you??).

5. A clock.  It’s the only clock in our room.  I’m not a deep sleeper, I wake up numerous times through out the night and look at the clock.  If I’m sleeping in a room (ie. a hotel) that doesn’t have a clock, I’m lost. I wake up through out the night wondering what time it is.  I need to know what time it is.  Don’t ask me *why* time is so important to me in the middle of the night when I’m sleeping…especially mid summer.

6. Camera and it’s cables- one of my cameras (I have two- a ‘purse camera’ that is tiny, waterproof/shockproof/easy to use/carry Olympus Stylus and then my *good camera*, an Olympus E-P2) is always beside me.  For several reasons.  A- you may never know when you may NEED a camera in bed.  Right?!  B- with all the pics I take through out the day, I usually download them and edit them late at night in bed.

7. Two dogs.  Brit- giant Golden Retriever/Border Collie mix and Mick- Blue/Red merle Heeler.  They always, always lay next to my side of the bed.  (the other 5 dogs are either ON the bed or under the bed)

8. The window- in all my houses, in all my life, I have slept next to the window.  I. MUST. BE. NEXT. TO. THE. WINDOW.  And it’s always cracked.  No matter how cold it is, I’m a HUGE fan of fresh air.  Being able to smell it.  Feel it.  Always.  It is what it is.  (sorry PC….)

9.  Eyeglass cleaning kit.  Early in the evening I take out my contacts (I wear them out of necessity, not out of desire much).  Smudged glasses drive me *insane*.  I get migraines if they aren’t perfectly clean.

10.  A simple lamp with a pretty lamp shade.  PC goes to bed, much (muuuuuuuuch) earlier than I do.  He’s a morning person (up by 5 am), I’m a night owl (rarely in bed before  2am).  I need something to read/watch tv/be on my laptop by!

I realize maybe these aren’t *THE* most exciting things.  I have a simple two tier stand next to my side of the bed- very shabby sheik.  The ‘good’ stuff is over on the other side of the bed.  In the bedstand with a drawer.  *wink wink grins*

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TFT is up!

ANYONE can contribute. Girl, guy, couple, hell, your entire fraternity/bachelorette party… Snap. Send. It’s all cool. Be as simple, artsy, or whatever…as you’d like. It doesn’t have to be anything special! Or make it be. Hey, my point is, whatever you feel comfortable doing- I’ll take it and put up. ALSO, you can contribute anonymously if your little heart so desires. OR let me know how you would like to be linked/titled.

I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

Email me HERE or even HERE….

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Have a fabulous Tuesday!!!

weheartit

~ xo

Vixen

Do you remember dancing around a camp fire?  With waves in the background.

Maybe there was music too?  I can’t remember…

And we fell into the sand laughing.  Lying on our backs.  Unable to catch our breath.

Then you leaned over, propped on your elbow.  Looking into my eyes.

And kissed me.

Intensely.

I felt my breath escape me.  Feeling yours escape you.

Do you remember that time?

I do.

(weheartit)

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TFT is up!

ANYONE can contribute. Girl, guy, couple, hell, your entire fraternity/bachelorette party… Snap. Send. It’s all cool. Be as simple, artsy, or whatever…as you’d like. It doesn’t have to be anything special! Or make it be. Hey, my point is, whatever you feel comfortable doing- I’ll take it and put up. ALSO, you can contribute anonymously if your little heart so desires. OR let me know how you would like to be linked/titled.

I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

Email me HERE or even HERE….

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Have a fabulous Tuesday!!!

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~ xo

Vixen

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I want to feel you moan as my mouth meets yours.

I want to feel the chills on your skin as my mouth finds your ear. 

I want to feel you lean into me as I nibble on your neck.

I want to feel your body tense as I touch you.

I want to feel you melt as I bring you close to climax.

I want to feel you shudder as you orgasm.

I want to feel your quickened, shallow breath as you regain composure.

I want this.

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TFT is up!

ANYONE can contribute. Girl, guy, couple, hell, your entire fraternity/bachelorette party… Snap. Send. It’s all cool. Be as simple, artsy, or whatever…as you’d like. It doesn’t have to be anything special! Or make it be. Hey, my point is, whatever you feel comfortable doing- I’ll take it and put up. ALSO, you can contribute anonymously if your little heart so desires. OR let me know how you would like to be linked/titled.

I’ll make it even easier. You want to become a regular contributor? You can send me one picture at a time. Or bunches. I’ll start a file and pull a picture from it each week. I’m easy people (I keep telling you all that! *grins*)!

Email me HERE or even HERE….

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Have a fabulous Tuesday!!!

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~ xo

Vixen

He comes up behind me in the kitchen.  Gently placing his hand on my hip. I can feel his breath on the back of neck.  Then his lips.  Barely brushing my skin.  Moving to my ear.  Whispering.  Sending chills through me.

His hand moves to my dress, gathering the fabric into his hand.  I can feel it sliding up.  Exposing my thigh.  His fingers exploring.  He realizes I’m not wearing panties.  Not that he’s too surprised….he would have been more so to discover I was.  Still he teasingly chastises me.  I melt into his hand that has found it’s way between my thighs.  His lips still against my cheek.  My breathing increasing.  Unable to focus on anything other than where his fingers are delving.  As I melt further.  My body tensing.

My hand grasps his.  Pushing his fingers further into me.  Leaning against him, as he stands solidly behind me.  My entire body shuddering.  Left gasping.  Trying to catch my breathe……  As he kisses my cheek.

(psst….highly recommend always reading the tags to the post…it gives a lot more insight to what/who I’m writing about.  Especially on Tuesdays.  Just sayin….)

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~*~**~FOURTH OF JULY THEME~**~*~
I’d like to do a special post next week, featuring anything related to tits and the Fourth of July. I will be posting a bit early- ON July 4th (Sunday).  Show you are proud to be an American! Let’s give the men and women out there serving our country a little something to look forward to! Pictures need to be in as early as possible bc I will be out of town for the holiday weekend.

But in the meantime, make your way there by clicking the button!

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Have a fabulous Tuesday!

~ xo

Vixen

Friday Favorites-

Topaz…Gemology…..

Petal…The Not So Secret Life of a Yummy Mummy…..

Beryl…Halfway Past the Point of No Return…..

*Don’t forget to click on the links and hit these girls up*
Thumbnails are only meant to serve as teasers!

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Can you seriously believe next week it will be July?!?!?!  Gah!!! It was barely spring/warm weather…it was June and then *POOF*  Sigh….  I can whole heartedly say though, that our summer weather has hit.  As in….it has been in the high 90′s this past week.  My sister and I were in Sun Goddess mode Monday and Tuesday, taking the six kiddos to the pool (hers and ours).  Thursday I took the kiddos to the zoo and it was 99degrees…..  Whoa.  See why the pool always seems so appealing to me?  Any days involving near triple digit temps should most definitely involve water as well.  Just sayin….

(oh and another reminder- looking for July 4th themed TFT pics!!!  Email me!)

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Farm life….
We don’t have the ‘best’ relationship with our neighbors to the south of us.  They love to come and bitch about something we’ve done/they don’t like (a fence issue, dog issue, other animal issue….) and always when PC has conveniently just left.  Gotta love tactics like that.  So yes…things are relatively ‘strained’.  Well, so the other night when a different (nicer) neighbor stopped by at 10pm-ish to let us know one of our horses was down on the road (again- we do have a annoying slight problem of our miniature horses slipping through the fence often)…imagine my um, opposite of chagrin delight to find out it wasn’t one of our horses, but rather the not-so-nice-neighbors horse (donkey…same difference-kind-of-not-really-but-you-get-the-idea, lol).  *SMIRK*

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A week from today I’ll be in Roxy-ville (with PC in tow *grins*) getting my Roxy fix.  It’s been too long…..various trips that fell through in June prevented us from getting together like we usually do.  My happy meter tends to go down when we don’t get to see each other at least once a month somewhat regularly.

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So there you go.  Randomness.

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Have a perfectly fabulous Friday!!!

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~ xo

Vixen